Well, here goes nothing!!
I’m desperately in search of a “Recovery Buddy.” By that I mean somebody who is willing to support and be supported. I’m looking for someone I can confide in, someone who understands the turmoil and struggles of a mental illness. I want to offer a heartfelt helping hand, provide respect and encouragement for whoever may desire it. With that state, I’d be glad to share my story with anybody willing to list.
My name is Kait. I’m 19 years old and I have been diagnosed with Anorexia, Bulimia, Anxiety, and Depression. Although these diagnosis are quite new to me– I’ve suffered for a long time, and been in denial of their existence even longer. I have been in and out of the hospital for nearly 3 years due to my eating disorder (at one time in my life, I was medflighted to Mass General Hospital due to electrolyte imbalance, organ failure, cardiac arrhythmia, and esophageal rupture), and the repercussions of neglecting to get a handle on this have left me with severe health concerns. Looking back, I cannot believe I nearly lost my life over a fear of food. So, I decided to make a change. It’s not an easy one, but I’ve come to realize that I’m not alone in this tormenting battle with an eating disorder.
I want my life back. I want to be social. I want to have fun. I want to smile. I want to eat. I want to blossom. I want to find balance. I want to live. In doing so, I want to kill off my ED.
I’m taking charge of my recovery, but the thing is… I don’t think I can do it alone. I’ve relapsed a number of time, and I’m becoming tired of it. Where I’m from, there aren’t the appropriate resources (therapy, support groups, IP/OP programs, etc). and nobody seems to quite comprehend the struggle. SO- while I am in between recovery and relapse, I know other people are as well.
Here’s my question:
Would anybody, ANYBODY at all like to become “Recovery Buddies?”
“To formerly introduce myself, my name is Kait. I am 19 years old and currently reside in the beautiful rural foothills of New Hampshire, USA. Living on a small homestead, and owning four gorgeous horses it is obvious that I am an avid equestrian. They are a monumental part of my life, and the structure of which I blossom. I ride both for pleasure and competitively (in many disciplines), and participate as a mounted cavalry soldier in Civil War reenactments. With that said, my passion for horses is flourishing much beyond the confines of the saddle. I also have an insatiable desire to help people who are in need of assistance, specifically therapy. With hard work, I’m striving to take my love for these two things and combine them to become an equine assisted therpist, after the appropriate schooling. This entails both occupational and psychological therapies with the inclusion of horses. (I desire to help those who suffer from not only physical disabilities and mental, but others who are recovering from trauma such as addiction, self-harm, divorce, eating disorders, etc. I’d also love take time to focus on rehabilitation for children and veterans.)
Phew! Aside from that, there’s a lot more about me!
I’m currently attempting self-recovery from Anorexia and Bulimia. (and it has proven to be one of the most challenging things I’ve ever had to do). This disease has taken such a huge part of my life away. Not only are the repercussions of this disease physical (from organ failure, to osteoporosis.), but social as well. With the weight that I lost, I also lost my social life and many of the skills associated with it. When I was at my worst, I isolated myself because of my fear of food, judgement, criticism, lack of energy and ability to keep up with daily routines. As I try to become healthy once again, I’m also making a social rebound! Hence my reason for making this profile! I strongly desire to achieve the thriving social life I once had, and I thought “what better way than to connect with people from around the world?” So, that’s that! I’m extremely friendly, nonjudgmental, quirky, goofy, humorous, and can add a lot of positivity into another’s life!!
To continue with my “About me,” I’ve decided to make a list of my hobbies, lists, and dislikes!
HOBBIES: horseback riding, animal care, volunteer work, diesel engines (specifically cummins), gardening, farming, hiking, art, photography, crafting, doodling, sketching, baking, civil war reenacting, promoting health and body acceptance, running, yoga, reading, writing, exploring, “redneck-y” activities, visiting the elderly, learning new things, learning about other people, fishing, swimming, camping, flea market/antique/thrift store shopping, giving individuals a reasons to smile!
LIKES: Horses, cats, sunflowers, unique jewelry, trinkets, thrift-store finds, nature, country western lifestyle, Johnny Cash, Old-Fashioned way of life, working hard, Eeyore, Mulan,The Lion King, humor and laughter, culture, creativity, free spirits, faith, new foods/snackies/goodies, a good book, classic literature, conspiracy theories, adorable things, history, Irish/Celtic history, modern literature,sharing and creating memories with others, sunshine,exchanging ideas/art, farm animals, oddities, spooky/strange occurrences,travel (even though I haven’t gone too far,cloud/star gazing, listening to stories of “the old days,” acceptance of others.
Honestly,the list could go on!
DISLIKES: trivial judgement, harsh words, arrogance, corruption (politics specifically), materialism, vet bills, crowds, fords, wasps, mainstream media.
What I’m looking for in a penpal:
Okay. My specific quest here is to find a SNAIL-MAIL penpal. If we connect well, I wouldn’t mind sharing other contact information, so no worries. But, what I’m really in search of is somebody who is IN RECOVERY or has RECOVERED from and eating disorder, or any other physical/mental disease or trauma. I’d like to have somebody that I can expel positive “vibes” upon, and in return receive the same. I basically in am search of a “recovery buddy.” (It is okay if you’re not suffering from any disorder, etc. I’d still be pleased to talk with you). Not only would I like to exchange stationary items and letters, but things like:
-snacks, candies, goodies (I find this important for recovery!)
-thrift store finds
(no, you don’t have to send a huge, expensive box of things. ha, but every now and then we can agree to send a goody or a few. So don’t worry about going broke!!)
SO, things of that nature. I would work my hardest to find items that you would enjoy, and suit your interest C: (I’d even take requests!)
Another things is: I’d really, REALLY, like to find somebody who isn’t in the USA. (I’m not opposed to having a penpal in the US, so don’t rule me out! haha) I want to soak in another culture, try candies/snacks that we don’t have here, and learn about your lifestyle!
So, if you’re interested please do not hesitate to communicate with me. I’m so giddy with excitement to be getting my social life back! I look forward to chatting.
I also want to add, that I don’t really use tumblr. My sole purpose for creating my account was to find somebody who may be willing to become acquainted and share some memories! ALthough I’m going to attempt to become active on here, it’s easiest for me if you contact me either through email or instagram!
It’s such a delight to regain social connection in my life, and finding new friends from all over the world would be a dream! Life is worth living, friends are worth making, and recovery is worth fighting for!
*NO, you don’t have to have any disorder or be in recovery to consider being my Penpal! <3
Fingers crossed this works!